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[Friday
August 13th, 2010
8:54pm] |
I love my cat Bender!!!! I hope he doesn't get bored sitting around all day :/ cant let him outside around here , wont be able to untill one day i have a house.
Bender i love you!!!
Over nights this coming week .. kinda nervous. i think my boy needs a little break from me though it will be good for us.
wow am i bored, lazy, kinda tired.
i really dont do anything anymore. i work full time go to the gym and hang out at my place. i see chantal and stephanie when i can . i just would rather hang out with myself than stupid shitty people.
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[Friday
August 13th, 2010
9:06am] |
Dear livejournal,
i think i kind of miss writing in you. I got facebook because i wanted to share photos with my family and close friends and keep in touch with them but what always happens is everyone wants to add you ...
wow i have grown alot.
i workout and eat healthy. i care about keeping myself healthy inside and out. i dont drink ( rarely wil i have a beer with my meal)
people mature and change when they get older and i defiantly have.
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| Sept 8th State board exams |
[Tuesday
September 16th, 2008
5:01pm] |
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Forgot to mention on here
as of sept 8th i passed alllll three of my exams at state boards
phewwwwwwww
I am now an Licensed Esthetician !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[Monday
August 25th, 2008
1:52pm] |
Yesterday Went to the gym in the mornin Cardio and weights and at night worked out again !!! woo plus getting back into crunches which makes me feel good
Plus studied today and yesterday for states exam .
Watching calories and what im eating again.. trying to get back to the way i use to be need to get out of this depression slump.
Need to send out resumes for Esthetician jobs even if they arent hiring ... Im so mad how hard it is to find a freakin job.
Interview with best buy today in Manchester. Argh. I hate retail but i gotta do what i gotta do.
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| i see in techno |
[Thursday
August 21st, 2008
3:13pm] |
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Lady GAGA
I see in techno color!!!!
 so hot!
Lady Gaga Who’s that lady? She's half a rock star, half a rock star’s girlfriend. She's 20. She's a songwriter. She is a singer. She's a pianist. And she's crazy. A RETRO, DANCE, FREAK. She has ears made of classic-rock, a voice of the 60s, the moves of a Brit-Disco queen, and a heart made of doo-wop and strawberry milkshakes. If GaGa had it her way, retro would be a noun, and pop just a cute name for soda--not a dirty word. This lady is a tiny person with a big voice and a lot of love to spread. During one of many wild performances in 2006, dancing at the piano in her trade-mark spanky pants and black eyeliner--the hypothetical lovechild of David Bowie and Jerry Lee Lewis--LADY GAGA, was discovered. Soon after, GaGa signed with multi-platinum producer, Rob Fusari. Her debut album is a hip-hop infused pop-lovers dream. The album combines her love of Beatles' melodies with retro dance beats, plastic synth sounds, and a corky rock piano style that solidifies her as a true drama-QUEEN. Check out Lady GaGa along with her DJ and Go Go dancer Lady Starlight, in downtown NYC, for the ultimate POP BURLESQUE ROCKSHOW. (Can you think of anything better than two hot groupie chicks singing retro pop in their panties? We can't) Lady GaGa & Lady Starlight: Changing the world one sequin at a time. Peace, Love, & Disco, The first Retro Sexual* (www.myspace.com/ladygaga) -- 2007 bmi news . com
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| an artist i admire |
[Friday
August 15th, 2008
3:44pm] |
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♥ audrey*kawasaki* ♥ The themes in Audrey Kawasaki's work are contradictions within themselves. Her work is both innocent and erotic. Each subject is attractive yet disturbing. Audrey's precise technical style is at once influenced by both manga comics and Art Nouveau. Her sharp graphic imagery is combined with the natural grain of the wood panels she paints on, bringing an unexpected warmth to enigmatic subject matter.
The figures she paints are seductive and contain an air of melancholy. They exist in their own sensually esoteric realm, yet at the same time present a sense of accessibility that draws the observer to them. These mysterious young women captivate with the direct stare of their bedroom eyes.
I love how she uses oil and graphite on wood 
♥
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| Are you From Africa? |
[Monday
August 11th, 2008
8:06am] |
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Yesterday I was in a really great mood... for some odd reason.
Haven't felt totally myself lately. Hung out with Mandy and we took off in her jeep went to fields Grove ,Smoked a nice blunt ( our normal routine)
drove around and decided to go to the Spanish Festival down off mainstreet. We ate Tacos walked around got some free beads.
Mandy got asked if She was from Africa ha?!! ... ummm i know rite. I wish Nashua had events and stuff of that sort happen all the time. I know im living in the wrong place..
Bring me Boston bring me Ca bring me san fran.. argh All this rain needs to stop tooo much!!!! when i came home which was prob like 3 or so i put my comfy pj pants on and got comfy and snuggled on the couch with myself listening to the rain and thunder. I am a loner ha. -------- Keep having weird bad dreams starring someone i wish i wouldnt keep dreaming about ... i don't know how to make them stop.
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| yeah |
[Friday
August 8th, 2008
9:37pm] |
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so today i helped stephanie move into her new apartment with kyle. alot of running up two flights of stairs with boxes good workout ... plus i worked out thismorning so im happy :}
even though i didnt really eat that healthy today. oh well i could feel myself burning calories all day.
argh i am so going to keep on focusing on myself and my goals for myself . since i have nothing else lately no one to hang with rarely and i just dont want to go out same thing all the time ive been done with all that for a while.
i need inspiration and some love.
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| my drug of choice is love. |
[Wednesday
August 6th, 2008
10:08pm] |
why do i feel so alone. at the same time i don't really mind. I like sitting here being by myself but yet i dont but i do.
i hang out with some of my good friends here and there but everyone is busy with their own shit but they are doing good. i just finished school waiting to take my state board exam to get my esthetics lisense.
where is my prince... ?
where are all the more good people of the world
i want my drug and my drug is love .. love needs to find me..
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| graduate to become an esthetician |
[Saturday
July 19th, 2008
10:22am] |
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i graduate today from my esthetics school
Paul mitchell micheals school in bedford.
the ceremony is today but i stil have two weeks left cause i have to finish my 600 hours then i wait till sept 1st for my state boards exam and get my license.
im so excited to start getting my life going.
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[Tuesday
November 13th, 2007
7:37pm] |
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Porcelain and the tramps Transparent Letra De Transparent
Look at me, you creep,
Straight in the eyes
I won't let you leave over my dead body
Maybe yours too
Read between the lines and see my middle finger's in disguise.
Oh
You wrote down every lie
Oh
There's nothing left to hide.
Pretty
Perfect
Girly
Dressed in black
Purple highlights in the back
I see you as you are
I see you're transparent
I see you as you are
I see you're transparent. Leaning on one hip with a cigarette, thinking your ass is as good as it gets
I see you as you are
I see you're transparent
I see you as you are
I see you're transparent.
I just saw you twitch
Twitching like a mouse. Pretending to play dead
In this kitty's house
So, i'll toy with you
So try not to be caught
Because my teeth sharp, and my tempers high
Oh
You wrote down every lie
Oh
There's nothing left to hide.
Pretty
Perfect
Girly
Dressed in black
Purple highlights in the back
I see you as you are
I see you're transparent
I see you as you are
I see you're transparent
Leaning on one hip with a cigarette, thinking your ass is as good as it gets
I see you as you are
I see you're transparent
I see you as you are
I see you're transparent 
 
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| guys.. they dont faze me anymore |
[Sunday
November 4th, 2007
7:11am] |
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guys.. they don’t faze me anymore Barely use live journal to write anymore... mostly use the bog on myspace.
anyways.
I gotta work this morning so up early... and i didn’t realize i had to set back the clock so i know i have even more time... woooo and i couldn’t fall back to sleep.
You know what. I just don’t give a care about guys like that ... I’ve been on dates here and there.. but it just doesn’t faze me at all. Ive been so myself lately its not even funny. I barely go out only with my good friends once in a while. mostly just go over Stephanie’s and hang out over my friends houses looking for something fun to do that doesn’t involve drinking which is good.
Having fun the old way hell yes:}
yeah I have good conversations with some guys but you know what it doesn’t mean anything .. it has to go beyond that.
I never get into a relationship unless i feel a strong connection and that’s how i always roll. Yeah i will date people but whatever.
sometimes i would put my heart out there and just realize not to cause if it was a mutual connection i think deep down i would know and they would know.
but i don’t really waste my time .. once n a while to see what’s out there...
but mostly i know i wont find anyone here at all..
and to tell you the truth im still not ready...because i won't just settle for anyone i'm not like that..i will when my heart says its right not because i need someone .I don't roll that way.
My body is my temple and my heart is my soul
I just like good friends that’s how i always was and am!!! and to tell you the truth im still not ready.
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| meow |
[Sunday
November 4th, 2007
7:06am] |
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| perfect lyric for a past relationship |
[Sunday
November 4th, 2007
7:03am] |
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Feels like the weight of the world
like God in heaven gave me a turn
don't cling to me, I swear I can't fix you
still in the dark, can you fix me?
freefall, freefall, all through life
If you love me, then let go of me
I wont be held down by who I used to be
she's nothing to me
Feels like the weight of the world
like all my screaming has gone unheard
and ohm I know you don't believe in me
safe in the dark, how can you see? perfect lyric for that past someone ..would have been perfect to show them at that time in my life that has passed.. just speaks a lot
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[Tuesday
September 18th, 2007
7:22am] |
Im finding myself more and more each day feeling comfortable with whom I am. Reaching truly deep inside to bring the most of me.
I like to be around people who make me laugh and just want to have fun. Those are my true friends... the ones who have been there for me and know me inside and out the ones I don’t have to explain anything to and stay by my side through the bad times in my life. For new friend I don’t let my guard totally down and just watch myself. It takes a lot to let people in my life though and as far as relationship wise... I don’t let guys in my life just because... (Yeah I have been through stages in my life but im actually feeling more myself lately going back to what I believed in). I don’t want anything with any guy like that. Im waiting for the right one again. Im not playing games. I’ve cut some of my guy friend’s outta my life because they wanted more and I didn’t want that at all... all I want is good friends.
I love my good friends and truly Bill is like the only guy friend I really can count on here...
I don't let certain people in my life anymore nor do I want anything to do with negative wasteful minds. I feel like I am finding myself more and more again each day and having the respect for myself knowing that I can do whatever I put my mind too and I wont let anyone tell me otherwise.
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| we were rockstars |
[Tuesday
September 18th, 2007
6:55am] |
Mandy and i decided to have a rockstar party with just the girls at my house so we dressed like rockstars and did chick stuff it was fun. Then i couldnt have a get together without bill so it started to just turn into a little get together with some good people and sean power was in town which was awesome to see him. it was fun. I dont drink soo having a party was fun ya know something once n a while.
i will upload pics lataaaa
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| She wants Revenge |
[Thursday
August 23rd, 2007
10:58pm] |
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Jerry got me into them when i was in California.
Tear You Apart
Got a big plan, his mindset maybe its right
At the right place and right time, maybe tonight
In a whisper or handshake sending a sign
Wanna make out and kiss hard, wait nevermind
Late night, in passing, metioned it flip to her
bestfriend, it's no thing, maybe it slipped
but the slip turns to terror and the crush to like
when she walked in he froze up, leaves it to fright
Its cute in a way, till you cannot speak
And you leave to have a cigarette, knees get weak
An escape is just a nod and a casual wave
Obsessed about it, heavy for the next two days
It's only just a crush, it'll go away
It's just like all the others it'll go away
Or maybe this is danger and he just don't know
You pray it all away but it continues to grow
I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right
I want to hold you close
Soft breath, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I want to fucking tear you apart
Then he walked up and told her, thinking maybe it'd passed
And they talked and looked away a lot, doing the dance
Her hand brushed up against his, she left it there
Told him how she felt and then they locked in a stare
They took a step back, thought about it, what should they do
Cause theres always repercussions when you're dating in school
But their lips met, and reservations started to pass
Whether this was just an evening or a thing that would last
Either way he wanted her and this was bad
He wanted to do things to her it was making him crazy
Now a little crush turned into a like
And now he wants to grab her by the hair and tell her
I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right
I want to hold you close
Soft breath, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I want to fucking tear you apart
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| Ozzfest |
[Thursday
August 23rd, 2007
10:55pm] |
Went to Ozzfest a few days. Scott invited me to go with him Jess and Kevin free tickets.. wooo. Lamb of god sounded intensely awesome
Ozzy is krazy ha
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| I've Been Hit By The Luck of The Lovely Ladybug ! |
[Thursday
August 23rd, 2007
8:31pm] |
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When I stepped out of the shower this morning I glanced up at the wall in my room and noticed a very Lovely Ladybug.
Ladybugs mean luck.
So to make sure I called Stephanie since she's pretty much the master of awesome information like that.:}
As i was on the phone with her i got a call from Humpty Dumpty offering me a job. She just loved my personality and found a spot for me to work there full time as a teachers Assistant.
Then i got another call from Hollis Academy for children. wanting me to come back for a second interview. So i went just to keep my options open.
I'm Excited because this is what i went to school for and i remember why i did now because i love being around little kids they make me happy. :}
It was the luck of Miss Ladybug that started it all I swear... :}.
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| nice seeing everyone last night |
[Thursday
August 16th, 2007
5:59pm] |
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nice seeing everyone last night
Body: went to the stripes and bars game last night free beer and hotdogs wooo. ha.. then bar crawl after..
everyplace was Packed last night had so much fun with everyone
Ran into a lot of old friends we all use to hang with so it was awesome seeing everybody :}
<3 kT
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